ekoman
2004-05-07 07:34:33 UTC
Well, Bob, I have to say something.
It was *I* who bought you Grendel.
It wasn't from malice, or because I wanted to rip you off (you never implied
or stated either in any of your "sermons", but I still feel bad about it),
but it was because I just didn't know any better at the time.
I was then (and still am in many ways, though not physically) young, and
just wanted to help someone out. I think you realized that in everything you
did, although I resented your wisdom at the time, and for many years
afterwards, really thought you were "out to get me" or something, to the
point that I hid in most Volkswagen oriented newsgroups, even though I felt
that this is where my path lay.
Tens of thousands of aircooled miles behind me now, almost a decade in time,
could you forgive me for this now? You have never said overtly or covertly
any unkind word to (or about) me, but for some reason this eats at my soul,
not sure why.
Now that I am almost 40 ( gasp), my father that you travelled with dead 6
years, I realize what a special time it was to have you with us. Instead of
learning from your experience and knowledge, I and my brother knew it ALL
(laugh), and rejected you. Damn youth, if I had only known then what I know
now.
I am not even sure what I expect from you, absolution? forgiveness? or maybe
I just want to expose the stupidity of my youth in a public forum to assuage
these irrational(?) feelings of guilt?
I dunno, but I feel better having written this. Maybe that is what I was
after. Timelines are subject to change, think I am WAY off.
It was *I* who bought you Grendel.
It wasn't from malice, or because I wanted to rip you off (you never implied
or stated either in any of your "sermons", but I still feel bad about it),
but it was because I just didn't know any better at the time.
I was then (and still am in many ways, though not physically) young, and
just wanted to help someone out. I think you realized that in everything you
did, although I resented your wisdom at the time, and for many years
afterwards, really thought you were "out to get me" or something, to the
point that I hid in most Volkswagen oriented newsgroups, even though I felt
that this is where my path lay.
Tens of thousands of aircooled miles behind me now, almost a decade in time,
could you forgive me for this now? You have never said overtly or covertly
any unkind word to (or about) me, but for some reason this eats at my soul,
not sure why.
Now that I am almost 40 ( gasp), my father that you travelled with dead 6
years, I realize what a special time it was to have you with us. Instead of
learning from your experience and knowledge, I and my brother knew it ALL
(laugh), and rejected you. Damn youth, if I had only known then what I know
now.
I am not even sure what I expect from you, absolution? forgiveness? or maybe
I just want to expose the stupidity of my youth in a public forum to assuage
these irrational(?) feelings of guilt?
I dunno, but I feel better having written this. Maybe that is what I was
after. Timelines are subject to change, think I am WAY off.
--
Eric Oster (remove the obvious to reply)
1960 Karmann Ghia Convertible(in boxes)
1965 Beetle....more work than I planned on
1966 Mercury Comet Cyclone GT Vert(basket case)
1967 Standard Beetle (almost done)
1967 Westphalia (mostly done)
1974 Kombi (As done as he will get)
2002 New Beetle Turbo S (totalled 12/31/2003)
Eric Oster (remove the obvious to reply)
1960 Karmann Ghia Convertible(in boxes)
1965 Beetle....more work than I planned on
1966 Mercury Comet Cyclone GT Vert(basket case)
1967 Standard Beetle (almost done)
1967 Westphalia (mostly done)
1974 Kombi (As done as he will get)
2002 New Beetle Turbo S (totalled 12/31/2003)